I guess we'll see how this all goes...

Well this week has been going great! But there's just one little problem.. The boys.
Let's start from the beginning...

Going to BHS has given me my old friends back from Elementary school. I didn't have that many close friends that were guys but there was this one guy I knew I'd always be friends with. His name is Kemal. Kemal and I have been best friends since the 4th grade. I hated not seeing him everyday in my Jr high life. He was in the 90% of kids that went to Nicollet. We finally reunited this year at BHS and ever since like October we've been inseparable. He's one of my best guy friends that I know I can tell anything to, who I can call whenever, who I can just be myself with. Everything about us was great! We were even about to possibly start dating. We went on a couple dates before and it was amazing! We saw the new Harry Potter movie and Due Date in theaters together. We went out to Nina's bar and grill and played a couple games of pool and had some dinner. Everything was just fine until I told my mom I showed interest in him.

I know my mom meant well and now she's apologized for everything but at the moment some damage just can't be undone. Kemal and I were forced out on dates a couple times. Like going out to Nina's on January 21st, 2011. Yes, I remembered the date. That's the day it all went down hill. My mom was going out with my dad and told me to invite Kemal. So I did. But he didn't show up... so that's kinda not a double date. I guess he was kind of creeped out by the fact I wanted him to come with me on a date with my parents. But this whole date thing I didn't even want to go on. This was my mom's way of keeping me away from the ex-boyfriend, Kole. Him and I had a rough break up and we've still been friends ever since but at this time we were kind of thinking about going out again.

Kole and I are godparents together of his sister Krysti's sons William and Edward. One day my mom was over at their house watching the boys. Kole comes home from school while my mom is talking to me on the phone. Kole asks if I can come over to hang out for a while. My mom's immediate response was "No, she has a date tonight." Me?! Have a date tonight?! Why didn't anyone tell me sooner? Well, because it was just planned that's why! What the heck? My mom told Kole I had a date with Kemal and that he could see me later. This got him upset, which is exactly what she wanted. Kole hates Kemal cause while I showed interest for Kemal, Kole still showed interest in me. For my mom this was the best excuse to get me out of hanging out with Kole. She didn't want me around him cause she didn't want to see me get my heart broken again.

So later that night, January 21st, I asked Kemal out to dinner. He said sure and said that he'd meet me there. Both my parents came with me. My mom wanted my dad to meet him. About an hour went by and Kemal didn't show. I couldn't get a hold of him. I purposely left my phone at home because I knew Kole would try to call me since he knew I was out with another guy. I really didn't want to deal with that. So after about another half hour I texted him off of my mom's phone, and he said he couldn't get a ride there. So the rest of my night was spent with my parents. Later, I found out that I'd been stood up. Kemal went to the YMCA later that evening instead of coming out to dinner. That was a jerkish thing to do. I know why he did that though.

Kemal's mom Fatima and my mom are good friends. Turns out Kemal's mom had been doing the same thing my mom had. Saying things like "Hey you should go out with Asia tonight, I'll give you money to go out. Don't be stupid take the pretty girl out for a date!" Personally, I thought that one was pretty cute. My mom had been saying things like "Hey go see what Kemal's doing tonight, I'm going to Nina's. Invite Kemal or you can't go." Stuff like that. We were both forced into what seemed like an arranged marriage! It was INSANE! And because of that our friendship ended. We don't talk anymore cause it's just to weird! Every once in a while we'll See each other but only when both of our families get together to do something. Or I go to his basketball games. But that's all over now. I lost a great friend and ALMOST boyfriend because of meddling parents.

Fast forward back to March 2nd, 2011. Kole and I were talking a lot that day. He asked me out and I said yes. Kole and I have that chemistry, no matter what happens, our feelings stay the same. We could make up and break up until we die! But I'd rather not do that.. :P Anyway the last time Kole and I went out, parents got involved too. This was around September/October. My mom would always make fun of him and tell him what to do and how to be a good boyfriend and all that jazz. He hated that! He didn't see it as teasing. He was kind of hurt by it. And throughout the months some other stuff has been said about him and his family, that really changed a lot of things. Everything is so different and there's still that awkward grudge against people that won't be fixed all because of it. Because no one really approved of us dating, we pulled a Romeo and Juliet and we made the decision not to tell anyone. Only the friends and family we trusted the most knew. Kole's family and friends knew, some of my friends, and only my brother and sisters knew. It was all going great! No one could tell us what to do, we had the freedom of not being constantly lectured, we could just get along and be ourselves without anyone interfering.

Yesterday, April 9th, Kole decided he wanted to tell my mom cause he didn't want to keep it a secret anymore. My plan was to tell everyone when we made ourn third month. Right now we've only been dating for a month and 8 days, so the relationship is still coming along. But it's WAY better than it has been before. I thought not telling anyone about it for a while might be a good thing. It gives me time to hang out with the guy I really like, and keeps me from getting lectured 24/7 about the guy!I didn't want Kole and I's friendship to end like Kemal and I's did. Meddling parents I just kind of wanted out of the picture for a while. It's not like I wasn't going to tell them, I wanted to I really honestly did, but because of the circumstances I couldn't.

People just don't know when to leave things alone! Like just the other day my mom texts me saying she'd give me $30 if I gave Kemal a kiss and told him I missed him. $50 if I could get him out on a date. She knew this was wrong and apologized for it but she still did that after all we've been through. Now she's even threatening to set Olivia up with a guy cause she doesn't hang out with friends as much as she should! That's a different story. But it's pertinent, so it fits. There are just some things I want to keep to myself and things I don't need other people to get into right now.

But because I kept it to myself and told everyone but my parents, I was lying. And now I'm in a whole crapload of trouble because our trust bond has been broken. I lyed to my mom about who I had taken interest in. I told her I liked this guy in my honors language class. Which I did! But that was before March 2nd came along. But to keep it sounding like I didn't have a thing with Kole I used it as my cover. YES I LIED! I get that. But do you get why I had to keep it a secret? I still shouldn't have lied and I know I was wrong for doing that but I didn't want everything to fall apart on me again. Loosing Kemal as a friend was one of the worst things that have happened to me. And I lost him all because of meddling parents! I didn't want that to happen AGAIN. Sometimes I don't want to talk about things until I know for sure it's going to work out. Now every one's mad at me and they don't see my side of why I kept it a secret.

My mom says I broke my bond of trust. But that was broken a long time ago when she meddled and destroyed a friendship with my best friend. Everything has been apologized for and it's all okay for now but at the same time it's hard to be honest when you can't take back what's already happened. Now I'm expected to tell my dad that Kole and I are dating. I think I'd rather break up with Kole than disappoint my father like that. But I really don't want to do that. I guess we'll see how this all goes.
:'(